In this post I would like to discuss with you, my personal dislikes of being mildly Autistic. But, to begin with I would just like to state that Autism is a recognised disability no matter how mild or severe. Now that’s out-of-the-way let’s begin!
There is a whole host of things I actively dislike about being mildly Autistic, so i will share a few with you all. Firstly, I hate all the over thinking (like for fuck sake! why????). I mean not everything needs so much thought put behind it. So i feel as if i over think things more than most (there i go again, over thinking). I feel this as I have a tendency to over think silly things such as “am I spending too much time playing games on the PS4 and not spending enough time with the people I live with?” Or “am I prioritising one game or one album more than the others as this is kinda unfair to the others that I own?” (I know this sounds absolute bonkers right!). I also have the tendency to over think that I am worrying too much, but my excessive worrying is another story for another day.
Secondly, I hate people’s reactions when I tell them that I am mildly Autistic. This may sound slightly silly but, I am fully aware of how people tend to treat you differently as soon as they learn that you do in fact have Autism & therefore do have a disability. I have personally had a full conversation with people who flows until they find out I am Autistic. Then all of a sudden they start speaking to me as if my IQ has dropped and I have lost one or two brain cells. I mean they slow down their speech and start using simpler terms ( as if to say you don’t understand me, and you’re incapable of regular social interaction). It’s at these points I just want to stand face to face with these people and say piss off you ignorant bastard (I don’t however, as then I would have to explain to them what exactly they did wrong and I can’t be asked with that rubbish). This type of thing makes life very frustrating at times, as i am fully capable of identifying when I am being treated differently. At times these kind of circumstances make me wish that either I didn’t have a disability at all and not seen as different, or that my Autism was much more severe so that I am unawares of how people treat me different. However, at the same time I wouldn’t change my Autism or my life (this shall be explained within part 3).
Apart from these strong dislikes having such a profound affect on my day-to-day life, there is one in-particular dislike that protrudes much further. This is the fact that I can’t explain my disability well. I can honestly say that I wish I could but I just can’t. I am unable to explain to people why I appear shy at first or why I act in the way that I do. I will be honest with you, I am probably the first to say that I am a strange person and don’t always fit in (not that there is anything wrong with this at all). It just means all I can say as a reasoning for my strange & unusual behaviour is that, it is just me. I mean let’s face it, we would all relish the thought of having the ability to make people understand us & who we are.
Before I finish, I would like to just say that I don’t hate the fact I am Autistic, I just find it extremely frustrating & stressful. There is nothing wrong with being Autistic, it can be wonderful, amazing even. Just think, there are people in this world of whom can shine a whole new light on the world and our lives. Isn’t that incredible. If these people are given half a chance they can make such difference to the lives of those who live in this world.
Thank you all for reading and please share & comment if you have any questions or points you would like to share with me. I would also like to thank those of whom have chosen to follow my blog & my writings.
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